happy cny to u

ok now past all the greetings and such cant really say im happy.

yes we are recieving ang baos... with greetings..

but man do i even mean what i say when i say happy new year? i wonder if it has just become a cliche tradition that everyone just erm. i duno. feel happy about? but what is there really to feel happy about? recieve money?

i think im a shallow person. all i was really happy before was gambling with friends and relatives. damn.

i kinda miss my grandparents tho.. wish i knew them better. went to visit their tablets today.. kinda felt a heartstring tug..
my bro was asking my grandfather if he shld marry his girlfriend.. haha.. throwing those erm, cups? i duno if u get me.
well when he did it twice, it was both facing up, and down, meaning is it not a "yes". so my mom was saying that maybe my grandfather wanted to see both of us, his grandchildren together before he gives the go. and haha.. it did come through.. kinda makes u think.
some might say its a coincidence, but i rather choose to believe family ties are bound together to do good things. and not just happening by coincidence :)